As storms come, a feeling, some sense.
Weather is shared.
Why trouble, why worry, go inside.
Find shelter and wait.
Even the most violent storms pass
Some in the blink of an eye.
At times, we walk into the front,
Like the water buffalo.
Other times, we wait quietly inside,
Wondering when the storm will pass
And it does eventually
Sometimes without lasting damage.
But damage and injury none the less.
At times, the wounds need to be addressed.
The weather always brings change
One can never be the same again,
The prideful try to create better weather,
Modern wannabe rains dancers.
The fearful try to get back to normal.
As if anything ever was, or will be, normal.
Be here now.
Get on with it we say,
To the sad little self.
Yet, it’s time to become,
The human, fully, you were and are meant to be
A living sacrifice, a becoming of presence
A place where you once avoided,
In order to find yourself...
Now you enter in and allow
Your own death as way to usher in
The kingdom of heaven, God, here and now.
The mystery of the ages,
Bending our own arc to the sacred curve. Enter the lost ness of self, become One.
Inspired by Bible NT Colossians 2:13
Persist here, do not be afraid.
The still small Voice awaits the quiet mind, the ready heart.
Be not afraid, opening is created by letting go.
Quiet, Silence can undo one … exactly.
Make me undone so that I may be reshaped.
Look… You… rather We are doing a new thing.
In the Silence, You renew me.
You make my You come through.
I need not wait.
You are here when You are ready, always.
I am here often, not always.
Help me to learn, to always yearn, rather, to recognize my yearning for You.
For the Oneness You offer to me, to all people.
A gift, The Gift.
Each moment, the yearning, each day a new gift.
The old me tries to shed the desire for unity through… projects, conversations, distractions, activities, even meditations and prayer.
Accept, You say.
Do not be afraid.
I am with you until the end of time.
You haunt me, as i haunt You.
Together as One through our manifestation, We are known and also may know.
We integrate through our letting go.
Help me let go that the collective we may become One.
- written June 2013
Although it sounds counterintuitive to say that to have better relationships we need to accept ourselves more fully first.
Here’s the thing. When we don’t accept the stuff about ourselves that we don’t want to be, we project what we don’t want to be on others. This is a key lesson on the spiritual journey. What you see in another is a reflection of something you recognize in yourself, whether it be a desired something or not so much.
So, next time you’re mad at your partner or friend, take a moment to breath and ask yourself, what is God showing me, about me? If it’s a highly charged reaction, a small time away from the encounter may be advised to give yourself space.
Once you discover the inner trigger, don’t further beat yourself up, just recognize the need to continue to recognize whatever you see, in yourself.
I had the chance to talk to a friend the other day who’s always talking about this amazing person, or the quality of such and such person, or this amazing thing so and so did. I asked him how much he looks for the good in himself.
Like my friend, I’m guessing many of us focus mostly on what we’re doing wrong or what we could do better. It’s part of our human condition and it has some here and now benefits in modern competitive world.
The problem is that the acceptance for what you are is already done so until you accept you fully, in effect, you’re disagreeing with the Truth of Love. It’s tough to give up the self improvement journey we’ve become accustomed to…
Standing by to help you navigate the journey.
It’s supposed to be a time to give thanks, to be joyful, and to be happy. In many cases, it is, or can be. In other cases, we carry on, as best we are able.
Unfortunately holiday fun can become a huge oxymoron in many households and families over the next few months with Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and all the associated gatherings, meals, overnights, travel, gift giving, drinking… you get the idea.
During the holidays our expectations can even be higher than day to day life as we yearn for more joy, happiness, peace, and love… what we often find inside ourselves is non-preferred thoughts, feelings, sensations and perhaps even physical reactions.
So what’s to be done? If anything?
This practice may help you navigate your inner and outer experience a bit differently this year. May you find the peace, joy and love within and around you during this time, and throughout the year ahead.
The first thing to recognize is that you’re not alone. Difficult and unwanted inner experience happens to all of us. And, much of our inner experience seems to be, or is, tied to our outer experience.
We also, as a species, tend to connect to the external triggers that seem survival and or deeper emotion oriented.
You might take a moment right now, to think about someone you’ll see or talk to this holiday season who triggers you regularly. Take a minute to recognize their affect on you, even when you’re not together. Go as deep as you can into the feeling and sensation as you recognize the memory of their impact is always with you, whether they are there or not.
As you explore this inner experience, recognize the intensity of the reality you’re experiencing right now. As with all humans… we all “carry” our reaction to people within us based on the impression they have on us.
Now switch gears, take a few minutes to think about a relative or friend you’ll likely see or connect with, over the next few months that will bring you a sense of joy, peace, acceptance, encouragement, gratitude, love, etc. If you’re having trouble thinking of someone that will help you feel and experience that sense, you might want to make some new plans for the holidays (sort of serious).
Once you have someone in mind, explore how you feel or what you sense in their presence. Again, notice how deeply you can feel and sense your inner experience, when they are not in your presence.
You might take a few minutes to internally travel between the two inner experiences you have of these two people that impact you in such different ways. Enjoy both the ease with which you can move from experience to experience and the depth and strength of experience attached to each person.
If this is the first time you’ve tried something like this, you may find it a bit disconcerting or difficult. Be patient and recognize that inner work is often avoided because we are raised to prioritize the physical or material world even though it is made clear in every religion that we are to prioritize the unseen, the Spiritual, God, the Holy Unseen…
In your brief practice, did you glimpse the Holy? Did you notice the Sacred Presence of God as you moved between inner experiences?
Our next question may be… so how does this help me with Thanksgiving dinner and cousin Freddie’s or aunt Edna’s comments? You may have an answer already, if not, you might consider this:
By doing this practice, you recognize that we are already carrying inner reactions within. In a “real life situation”, you can decide whether to react to them by attaching to your inner reaction that you associate with them… or, you can look for the preferred internal reaction you’re carrying attached to a the person you’re looking forward to seeing, for whatever reason.
Okay, it’s not quite that easy, but it’s close. Check out this insightful story which helps us gain greater perspective on what’s going on within and around us.
A senior monk and a junior monk were traveling together. At one point, they came to a river with a strong current. As the monks were preparing to cross the river, they saw a very young and beautiful woman also attempting to cross. The young woman asked if they could help her cross to the other side.
The two monks glanced at one another because they had taken vows not to touch a woman.
Then, without a word, the older monk picked up the woman, carried her across the river, placed her gently on the other side, and carried on his journey.
The younger monk couldn’t believe what had just happened. After rejoining his companion, he was speechless, and an hour passed without a word between them.
Two more hours passed, then three, finally the younger monk could contain himself any longer, and blurted out “As monks, we are not permitted a woman, how could you then carry that woman on your shoulders?”
The older monk looked at him and replied, “Brother, I set her down on the other side of the river, why are you still carrying her?”
Would enjoy hearing about your inner experience with this practice. Peace be with you.